Aequitas: Fallen

Several things were revealed to me

But I turned a blind eye, refused to see

What was there, awaiting and alee.

Home was not where I thought it was,

Instead it was elsewhere, and all because

I turned my back on those in need,

Succumbing instead to lust, and greed.

And I think I know of all my flaws;

Sins, weakness, and disregard for law,

And so the pit opens and I fall into the maw.

I've fallen before, but never this far,

My dignity lost, and my presence barred

From where I want to spend my life,

And all I can do is whine and gripe.

And the failure I feel seems so unreal

Except for the loss of one so costly,

But mostly I feel that you weren't there,

Frigid, distant, without a bit of care,

And stealing from me was something unfair.

For you, I feel spite, but never despair,

Because you have hardened my heart.