#100: Shrinkage

So Aqualad sends me a link to this article: THE TOP 100 !!!!!! SONGS OF ALL TIME !!!!!

Okay, the headline wasn’t caps lock hollered, nor buried in a plague of redundant punctuation, but it probably should have been. All top-whatevers probably should be. Doesn't it seem like “top 10” or its ilk is the new societal standard template for the recycling of media-bytes into new configurations so that we can re-experience pop culture dynamos in perpetuity (and never have to resort to our own hog-tied creative instincts for artistic fulfillment, nor the imperfect unmarketable endeavors of our weirder spacier friends with that artistic bent)?

I remember when I was young, the odd top-ten list or top 935 songs countdown on the 93.5 radio station actually came with criteria and were thus arranged with some semblance of mathematical legitimacy even if the criteria depended on educated opinion. These days top-ten seems to mean ten selections arbitrarily drawn from the limited perspective of some bozo who offers no reasoning behind his choices and couldn’t if he tried. I’m trying not to perceive this migration as another needle in the haystack of evidence suggesting that the masses of our species are slowly dissolving into a tepid pool of intellectual sludge.

But this was in no way supposed to be a rant…

I actually have no complaint with this rock critic’s exercise. I think he’s upfront that this is an entirely subjective rendering in accordance with his own instinctive ear and not a balanced or academic analysis. And the guy obviously loves music and knows a thing or two about putting the slippery concepts of musical appreciation into very useful words. Well done, I say. I think the usefulness here is not in expert opinion but rather – here are some potentially awesome songs… if there are some you haven’t heard of before, click the link and experience! You might find a new fave!

Should you actually give a damn what his favourite songs are? No. And mine neither. But I think the same usefulness might apply to my own endeavor. Yes, I’m going to heavily feature within this blog, for a while, the plugging of my own top-100 songs. I made the challenge to Aqualad who immediately declined. Naturally he wouldn’t expect to be able to pull a (17-year) lifetime of music observation into his head all at once. “I’d probably be forgetting about a lot of great songs,” he said. And I’m sure that would be true for almost anyone, but it so happens I have been a passionate music-lover and a note-taker by hobby, since junior high so I was well-equipped for this!

I hope you’ll follow along and maybe relive a couple oldies you loved and forgot about or maybe even discover a couple tunes new to you that you’ll be glad you heard.

I started by going through my music collection plus my list of songs I must obtain which I’ve kept up to date since the early eighties, and making a list of the most critical songs – those I knew without a shadow of a doubt belonged in the top 100.

It turns out there are precisely 168 songs that no doubt belong in my top-100.

Wheedling it down to 100 was almost easy. I could confidently separate my top 99 but then about 20 seemed tied for 100^th place. So I had to listen to them all before The Boss finally won out and squeaked into my personal singles hall of fame.

I know what you’re thinking. You’re thinking, To hell with this, there’s gonna be about fifty Rush songs on here.

Well there’s not. Had I been using any kind of academic process at all, there might have been fifty Rush songs on here. But I went with this criteria: Toe-tapping, head-bobbing, torso-swaying catchiness. Thus the songs are generally anthemic, energizing, and/or emotionally captivating. These songs do not necessarily offer the richest listening experiences, but the most addictive. Interestingly, the list contains some of the most structurally shallow songs in my musical awareness along with some of the deepest; both extremes of the scale. In other words, the criteria is this: These are the 100 songs that would cause me to mildly strangle you if you tried gabbing at me while they were playing on the radio. The bluer I would let you turn, the higher the song ranks!

I captured some rather trivial demographics so that we can look at fun patterns:

43% (or 43 songs obviously) were released in the 1980’s. That’s no surprise. I became a teenager in the 80’s and there is nothing like the chaos of puberty to drive one to the solace of one’s headphones and the deepest emotional music connections we generally make in our lifespan.

That leaves 31% from the seventies which, in my humble objective opinion, was probably the peak of mainstream songwriting since the classical age, and 12% from the sixties, which was rock and roll’s golden age, no doubt, and I adore it, but I interpret that (early) sixties rock, in a very general sense, lacked enough sophistication to give songs deep lasting resonance.

Only one 20^th century tune predates the sixties and only one song predates the century. Just nine songs come out of the nineties, the latest from 1997. Very sadly, that leaves just three songs from the last eighteen years! Oddly, two of those three hail from Sweden.

Geographically, I predicted that America would dominate but in doing the research I discovered that more than a few composers I assumed were American turned out to be Canadian or English. The photo-finish breakdown is such:

37% UK

36% USA

20% Canada

7% other.

If Canadian origin seems disproportionately large, I suggest that it stems just a little from genuine culture, not at all from personal prejudice, and mostly from logistics: Canadian radio leans toward Canadian content (per legislation as far as I know) and familiarity breeds fondness.

Style-wise my leanings are quite diverse but this criteria lends itself very predominantly to rock and pop, with meanderings into new wave and the briefest possible flirtations with metal, southern rock, classical and jazz. Alternative is under-represented but then again, alternative music, for me, is largely album oriented and not singles oriented. Grunge is flat-out missing. I once adored it but never has a style had less legs. Nirvana, and more-so their peers, have gone flat with time.   

Presented in reverse order, I give you:

THE TOP 100 !!!!! (personally subjective) SONGS OF ALL-TIME !!!!!

# 100

I’M GOIN’ DOWN

By Bruce Springsteen

1985, USA

I was in the darkroom working on a high school photography assignment while this was playing when I first realized how much I digged it, along with a host of other tracks from the new Born in the USA album. I decided right then I had to buy that album (on cassette) but I ended up dubbing someone else’s copy and put Brian Adam’s Reckless on the other side. That tape became my summer soundtrack that year.

On that same occasion, I also first noticed the lamenting quality of the lyrics (consistent with the album). But I was a rather lamentable teen so it all worked. Previously I had interpreted the music as upbeat and boppy (with one of the late great Clarence Clemons’ most delightful sax riffs carrying the bridge). On the first few occasions I overheard the tune I might have somehow equated goin’ down with gettin’ down. It was quite a while before I picked up on the rude physiological interpretation.

Peaked at #9, Billboard's Top 100

 "…wonderfully exuberant and hilarious."--Debbie Miller, Rolling Stone

"A prime exemplar of the kind of good-time party song that Springsteen and E Street do best, sliding easily through the verses with a ... bouncing rhythm ... and a fun, jumping end."--Caryn Rose, Billboard Magazine


Here's a cute, tidy version by NYC indie rockers, Vampire Weekend.

Checking in…

Elvenkind

The Entourage

The Trans-Neptunians

The One

Carnival Music

Me Again
Dreamers of Swans

(untitled non-fic compendium)

(untitled biographical project)

Someone From Somewhere

(untitled interactive fiction project)

These are all full-length books I have started and not finished nor officially given up on. I only have one finished novel to my credit and two novellas (one might arguably be called a novel) and all still require a final edit.

I have at least a dozen songs I’ve yet to record (in my own very rudimentary way) and stick on youtube (and a few more I will not bother to), and at least seven which need to be improved upon and re-released on youtube – or bandcamp or soundcloud or wherever.

I have a half-finished board game prototype which I think may be unique and having exciting potential.

I have an edgy and humorous crossword puzzle collection well underway, a horoscope column of unusual aspect in the works, three major research projects barely off the ground and enough short stories and poems to half-populate a wide variety of collections.

I want to learn to paint. I want to run a youtube show. I want to create a film/video of some kind… I was actually offered a director role once, for a low-budget theatrical film; aggressively pursued actually, which was crazy because I had no clue how to direct a film (and still don’t) and said so quite plainly. I was pressured to at least read the script and it was rather dreadful so I’ll never regret passing that up. I think the producer went kind of broke before he could launch the project anyway.

I have health issues that must be catered to before they go out of control and wreak havoc on the fragile living arrangement that I depend on. Meanwhile my finances are possibly on the brink of collapse.

I’m in a demanding volunteer role which I never should have committed to because it does not well serve my goals.

I have too many interests, too many goals, not enough discipline, not enough energy and sleep too little.

I endure a particular kind of loneliness which perhaps no one in the world might understand. Or if there are compatible persons out there somewhere, I have little hope we’ll ever meet.

I would give anything to have my experience heard and understood (and to reciprocate similarly). I thought for a time that Neo was that receptor. We had a rare and brilliant connection, I perceived, as good as any two humans possibly could have. I don’t think we got to the point where he really understood me or what I actually had accomplished. I think he thinks he did but I’m not convinced. I’ll always hope though. He has a brilliant mind and I will always believe in him.

I was at my best for a time; for a few years. I zeroed in on my own particular potential for genius and regardless how close I got to it, I know I have since regressed. I see my failings regularly.  I don’t beat myself up for them. I just take note.

There is an enterprise I must devote myself to, and it is so hard to do without partners. And yet, really there is nothing to stop me but me.

Wilberforce Sunday

I’m sitting in shorts and open shirt, cottage at my back. The air is perfect warmth and perfect breeze. The lake is dotted with fisherman while the late sun conducts a silent fireworks display upon its surface. I’m writing a novella about the marginalized hangers-on of a remote dwindling village, shaken out by industrial mishap and environmental crisis. Where this idea came from, I have not a clue. But it’s a joy to be writing something entirely character-driven as these odd denizens have nothing left but each other, with all of their flaws.

Grandpa Munster

I sit at Tim Hortons working on my laptop, tinkering with reams of personal research, tying to find ways to effectively deliver messages that people need to hear in order to make their lives better and to give our species the opportunity to survive and to change the universe.

Opposite me, Grandpa Munster, oblivious to my goals in life, circles letters on a grid; solving word-search puzzles. The easiest puzzles in existence. And he’s happy. He’s happy just to be away from the house that is home to another 19 residents, each more mentally troubled than Munster.

The gap between his circumstance and mine; the terrible inequality, it weighs on me. I have all the power in our relationship and it’s not comforting at all. His life still revolves around my visits. This is not what I asked for. It does not flatter me. Now and then we will play some Crazy Eights and for those moments we are equal, but I have little time to spare for that.

It makes me happy to see I have made someone happy.

But to make someone so happy through so little effort of mine, it kind of makes me sad. It makes me think, “If I can do so little which is magnified so much, than why aren’t I doing it more?”

Some critical perspectives on the realities of time travel

I’ve enjoyed a lot of time machine movies, especially of late, and have finally put some thought into this idea of time travel. I’ll try to keep this concise so please stick around. I’m pretty sure you’ll find it gets interesting:

The standard Hollywood idea is that scientist shall invent a vehicle for traveling through time; literally transporting an object (such as a human) from one point in time to another. Now, we don’t even need to understand Einstein’s or Sagan’s explanations of the nature of time to understand that this particular scenario is never going to happen. We need only be observant and contemplative in our lives, exercise our brains enough to access powers of logic, and be honest enough to want the truth instead of the easy half-logical routes to the answers we want to hear.

Given all of that, you would understand that a “person” is not precisely a factual physical solitary thing. A person, of course, is a giant community of interacting microorganisms, organs, tissues, chemicals, liquids and whatnot in a non-closed environment which is constantly interacting with its surrounding environment and not only physically (such as intake and outtake of oxygen and other atmospheric components and exchange of energies) but causally. As a human I am exchanging with my environment, a combination of materials and cause-and-effect transactions averaging a rate of – I actually have no idea – let me guess, oh – a combined thousand of various unit types per second maybe? Ten thousand? A hundred thousand per second? More? Everything tiny thing we do is irrevocably connected to every other imaginable minuscule component in the universe either directly or by any number of degrees – even if some exponential trillions of degrees.

The universe at any given time cannot be what it is without “you” being in your place and doing what you do physically and causally.

To transport a person to a different time, Hollywood style, is to make enormous calculations to gather up all of these constantly-interacting and constantly-interchanging materials and energies in the precise configuration which we think of as a person and remove them all simultaneously from the equation of the universe at a given moment and re-insert them all into the equation of the universe at a different moment, which is, in effect, a different universe.

The problem is that, understanding causality (and oh – what a criminally negligent job they did of teaching causality at my Catholic grade school and presumably all others – if we could time travel I’d go back and ring their necks), the number of changes you are actually making to the universe(s) is for all intents and purposes… infinite.

You are literally, upon sending “someone” to a different time period, dismantling a universe and reconstructing another one. And calling that time-travel is no different than tearing down an office building, building a new office building in its place and calling it time travel. It would be just as absurd.

Also, because the younger universe in this scenario is basically responsible for the older universe (through a number of causal transactions with probably more zeros in it than would fit in all the computers on planet Earth combined), you’re creating a circular reference loop like the error you get on your excel spreadsheet when you do something that can’t be done.

So there.

Now here’s the awesome news in case you haven’t pondered this before:

What about, not traveling through time, but just seeing through time?

Absolutely possible!

It seems to me that looking into the future will be extremely hard to accomplish because you need a computer or network of computers (or some future calculating/reporting device) that understands every component of reality, and of causality, and is capable of tracking all such components at a minimum speed just ever so slightly faster than things actually happen, and it will be able to accurately predict and fully display future events. There you go!

The problem is that the faster the fancy computer gets the faster it needs to get because it can not possibly help but be an element of the very reality it monitors and thus it must be faster than itself. So maybe that’s a serious problem! I'd love to hear from someone who sees a way out of that.

But get this! Looking into the past is much less a problem. In fact it's a breeze. You’re doing it now. What you see is the result of light that has travelled from the objects of concern into your eyes and that process took time. Everything you ever see has always happened in the past.

Are you disappointed? Are you thinking, “Screw that. I want to see back to when Kennedy got shot and see if I can glimpse any clues as to all these conspiracy theories!”

Well, that is not necessarily impossible. As long as it was not too cloudy a day. It's just a matter of scale. You just need to get really far away from Dallas Texas so that the light hitting your eyes at your viewing place would have originated on November 22,1963. In other words you need a telescope with a 52 light-year range and a vehicle that can take it 52 light-years into space, in an appropriate direction (there's plenty of wiggle room) which was free of obstacles (including clouds) on that November day, and you will witness Kennedy's assassination first hand.

And if we can build a telescope with a 65-million light-year range and send it that far into space, we’ll be able to watch dinosaurs walking around and see with our own eyes what colours they really were. It’s true.

It’s NaNo Eve…

Tomorrow is July 1^st. A special holiday. It is the first day of Camp NaNoWriMo edition two. The second opportunity of the year to set a writing volume goal and have a community rally around it; the virtual accountability structure that helps motivate us normally-solitary discipline-lacking writers to remember that we are writers and to keep up with our work.

In the April session I started a very heavy project; probably the most important book I will ever write – if I can write it, and became overwhelmed by the outrageous scope of it fairly quickly. The object though, was to go in unprepared and wing it – to see if I could actually learn how to do it. And by that I mean, how to simply approach it.

I learned a few things in the attempt, both good and bad, but still not enough to actually know what I’m doing. And I haven’t touched the project since mid-April. And now, with my head slightly more prepared than last time, and again with no real preparation, I shall take my second stab at writing the book that I believe the world absolutely needs to hear.

And I vow that I will keep taking as many tries at this as I need to.

abuse /əˈbyo͞oz/

I see all through the workplace, bosses treating non-bosses like children; demanding inflexible punctuality in the morning but flexibility in return at the end of the day. I see labour codes ignored and safety overlooked; thorough acquiescence expected. I see workers baited to go to extra effort to grow the business, induced by imaginary rewards while the executives and managers reap all the tangible rewards. I see mandatory vacations amount to a farce, with no relief from work—only the option to adjust one’s schedule and work twice as long and hard before and after. I see workers suddenly expected to cover two jobs at once. I see executives deifying competition and sacrifice entirely for self-serving reasons…

All because they can.

Because we believe the fantasy that hard work gets you the promotion, the retirement, the reward of long-awaited happiness well before you are dead or decrepit, and sometimes it almost works out that way. For most people it does not even come close. Most people leave the workforce dead, disabled or poor.

And because we fear unemployment.

Unemployment is a myth. It is a self-fulfilling prophecy. It is the occasional isolated fall-out from drastic systematic over-employment.

And yet I have witnessed the rare exceptions. I have seen people enter the workplace with integrity and knowledge of their value and without fear! Without coveting their job… and demand respect. And in each case, they have received it.

abulia /əˈbo͞olēə/

abubble /əˈbəbəl/

Oh but he said something insensitive and it hurts me! Oh but I’m not getting a raise! Oh my oh my I need a car repair! Oh but it's going to rain! Oh but she won’t do what I say! Oh but our quarterly profits are down! Oh but my fender is scratched! Oh but if he does that, it means he doesn’t love me! Oh but the water is taking too long to heat up!

Oh my oh my oh toil and trouble…! What…? What, the race shall not sustain?

Oh don’t bother me with that! Can’t you see I have troubles of my own!

absurd /əbˈzərd/

We judge everyone based on the scarcest of evidence, take offense at unqualified criticism, cherry-pick factoids and consider it logic. We drive cars, eat animals and think we are not killers. We lawfulize slavery and call it a job. We hunt down our wants and think them our needs. We accept answers we can’t possibly consolidate rather than observe and contemplate the genuine answers from our genuine living experience. We think we’re alright. We think that we can just go on living this way indefinitely. We think the clock is not ticking.

abstract /abˈstrakt/

It puts my one foot in front of the other.

It blurts unwise words from my lips.

It demands respect, demands hungers sated and speaks to me in dreams, unknowingly perhaps.

It is the captain of the ship; the devil; the superpower. It is the man I once mistook for myself. I cannot know him directly but only by watching carefully and knowing who I am not.

Image snoozled from crystalinks.com

absence /ˈabsəns/

“Call me. Let’s get together,” he said to me; to the man he considered his son, I suppose. My pick-up was loaded with the third and final load.

“Of course,” I replied, and under my breath: but not anytime soon…

Two years flew by. I heard of his problems. I knew that his health was in decline.

His close friend called me. “He wants me to give him your number. He wants to call you.”

“That’s fine,” I said. “My number is no secret. He’s welcome to call me anytime.”

I got to looking forward to the call. It was time to lay it on the line and tell him honestly why it had been no priority of mine to see him; why I judged that we were pretty much useless to each other. Why I’d yet to call or come around for two years. Then two weeks passed and I decided that he was not likely to call after all. He didn’t have the nerve. Or maybe he was just giving me a poke to see if I would call him. I was thinking this as I drove past the healthcare centre where he’d recently been a resident and I decidedly firmly that when I arrived home I would call him.

Just minutes later I arrived home with that task still in mind. The phone was ringing as I unlocked the door. It’s him, I thought. Good. I rushed to the phone and it was not him after all. But it was very much about him. It was my cousin on the line; the one who seems permanently delegated the task of calling me when there is bad news in the family.